Hands down worst weekend of my life. Went home to spend time and my birthday with my family and from Friday till today no one gave a shit that I was home. I literally just watched tv while everyone else went out and had fun. I mean I wouldn’t mind if someone asked me if I wanted to come but I guess I was just invisible.

I had to work Saturday so I asked my mom if I can borrow her car to go to work. Turns out that morning my brother breaks the car and doesnt tell her about it and I get yelled at. WTF!?!? So now Im out a 8 hour shift because I had to call in saying Im having car troubles and I get yelled out for something I didnt do. =/ 

Sunday we had a party for everyone in my family who’s birthday is in February.  I was up late studying the night before so I asked my mom if she could wake me up so I can help set up and get ready before everyone arrived.  She wakes me up at noon yelling at me saying that everyone is here and there all eating already. WTF so no one decided to wait or wake me up earlier? Thats when I lost it and I didnt want any part of anyone downstairs so I just stayed upstairs and studied.

I thought Destiny could make me feel better because I was having a bad weekend and that didnt turn out well either.  She didn’t even try to make me feel better. She just pushed all my problems aside.

It may sound like im bitching right now but you guys gotta put urself in my shoes. I do everything for my family and I never get shit in return. I dont ask for much but I cant keep being the bitch of the family and doing favors for everyone who acts as if I dont exsist. And im always there for Des and when Im having a bad day I want to be able to talk about it not just push it aside.

Hopefully this week makes me feel better.